In bed next to him,
your arm follows the swell of your hip
and your hand hugs your thigh;
you've never felt so alone,
or so beautiful.
His closed eyes have mapped
even the ghost towns of your skin;
every time you slipped off your shirt
you wished you could outline your contours
with a dirty brush, darken your creases.
Hot breath shivers on your neck
as you leave him for the last time,
corkboard walls still rattling in your ears,
his father's shouts like accelerant
aching for a match.
Now your ribs pant, tired from caging
your heart puckered lips
kissing the same depression below his ear,
lungs lolling dead in your mouth.
Look at you.
Acne spilling out the edges
of the sea-level sling-back dress,
zipper-down, skimming the tops
of your thighs.
Skin slivers
you forgot to cover-
from the front you're glazed,
concealer drying in the zits
typical of your age, but not the vision
you have for yourself.
But from the awkward angle-
through the rushing blood
of boys checking you out on the street,
your flushing cheeks-
See how your clay nose droops?
See the rough patch
on the side of your neck,
the cracked ceramic shoulder blade
where you'll get your next tattoo.
You wear that kiln-carnage dress,
clinging to the malformed curves
of an amateur's mi
I slip Leonard's jacket off of its brass hook by the back door, step into his large, heavy mudding boots, grip my walking stick tightly in one hand and find myself reluctant to put it down, even to wrap the jacket around my thin, shaking shoulders. The jacket smells like mildew; I did not hang it up outside to dry properly, did not want Leonard to suspect more than he had to. The corner of my mouth curls as I think about the silly story I told him-fell in a puddle, Leonard, it's no matter-and how readily my husband accepted it, rewrapping his worry for a later time.
Darling, I feel certain I am going mad again.
They climb in a flesh canoe
for the maquiladoras to stab their
pipes into and carry them down river,
where the locals suck their soap refuse
and haze like hash,
burning out-of-season mangoes,
hard-skinned and bitter. They hack thin spit
that runs along street curbs into drains
beside the roundworm water
and then disappears in the dry Rio Grande
where even bones evaporate-
caught, sand-handed, by border police.
They climb in a flesh canoe
with babies swaddled on their
cigarette-pack shoulder pads,
and dip their oars silently in the sand.
Their legs ripple with the
effort of remaining water.
Goodnight, they tell Juarez,
an
The grandmother is someone to be ashamed of. Her wispy orange hair tufts around her ears in clumps and patches; her prosthetic leg and walker clip, scratch against the asphalt. The father is waiting in the car, his forehead against the Arizona-hot steering wheel asking himself why, God damn it, he hadn't visited his mother earlier.
The last time he saw her his daughter was four years old, his son had just been born, and he was in the White House, shaking hands with the president. His mother clamored on stage, beaming, lips trembling, smoothing her hair around her ears, and even though she was slow
Mia cara famiglia,
If you're reading this, my body is lying embalmed in Pasquini's Funeral Home, no better than a jarred frog in formaldehyde-and my dying wishes have been totally ignored. Don't try and deny it, Mamma, I told Pasquini's sweet son to deliver this to you only if my body showed up at his mortician father's door-I described my birthmark, so he'd know it was me. You can imagine how glad I am now that I had the foresight to write this letter, seeing as my suspicions were completely correct and my entire family does think I'm an idiot. Hopefully now that I'm dead, my opinion will weigh more. Maybe on paper, just a memory, I'll
Your fathers favorite
bobblehead,
his fingers dancing on your scalp
irritating rusted springs
three taps from snapping.
You cry
every time he calls.
Wah-wah,
like Charlie Brown and
old cartoons
the 1930s, when men
jumped out the window
a mass exodus to the ground
and no one noticed
til after
til cerebrospinal fluid
flowed around the haves
in oblong rushes brushing
the have nots.
You look out at the scenery
a daydream distracting
phone pressed to your ear
and they tell you not to jump.
He pressures you
like a shaken cola
a bursting catheter.
You gust out of a
punctured aeros
I am standing in the doorway. I held her close to me here, just here, during the earthquake three years ago, when I finally decided I loved her. I am standing here in the doorway, and she is standing by the bed, staring at an antique lampshade; I know she is remembering the day I brought it home from Brunei. She kissed me on the mouth for the first time since our wedding. Just in the corner, just there, but it was enough.
A suitcase is on the bed, the zipper half open; she stops every few seconds to stare at a piece of our life together and remember. The lampshade. Ring stains on the bedside table. The pattern the light makes on the b
she holds baby like hes
porcupine,
as if his plum tomato lips
stick her through,
name her pincushion with their
first words,
ma-ma.
most women coo,
its not so bad, having your
biological clock
tick-stopped by grasping gasping
clinging crying
staying.
shes too strong to peel away
softened-butter joints
from her solid-food fingers,
up to the knuckles in pedialyte.
men see the quills on her
baby-wide hips
and imagine lapping at the
baby-bottle poised dripping
hovering millimeters
from her nip-tuck lips.
she prays for I want you,
pulling-strings into her dark-
green bustier,
one pump balancing on the
In bed next to him,
your arm follows the swell of your hip
and your hand hugs your thigh;
you've never felt so alone,
or so beautiful.
His closed eyes have mapped
even the ghost towns of your skin;
every time you slipped off your shirt
you wished you could outline your contours
with a dirty brush, darken your creases.
Hot breath shivers on your neck
as you leave him for the last time,
corkboard walls still rattling in your ears,
his father's shouts like accelerant
aching for a match.
Now your ribs pant, tired from caging
your heart puckered lips
kissing the same depression below his ear,
lungs lolling dead in your mouth.
Look at you.
Acne spilling out the edges
of the sea-level sling-back dress,
zipper-down, skimming the tops
of your thighs.
Skin slivers
you forgot to cover-
from the front you're glazed,
concealer drying in the zits
typical of your age, but not the vision
you have for yourself.
But from the awkward angle-
through the rushing blood
of boys checking you out on the street,
your flushing cheeks-
See how your clay nose droops?
See the rough patch
on the side of your neck,
the cracked ceramic shoulder blade
where you'll get your next tattoo.
You wear that kiln-carnage dress,
clinging to the malformed curves
of an amateur's mi
I slip Leonard's jacket off of its brass hook by the back door, step into his large, heavy mudding boots, grip my walking stick tightly in one hand and find myself reluctant to put it down, even to wrap the jacket around my thin, shaking shoulders. The jacket smells like mildew; I did not hang it up outside to dry properly, did not want Leonard to suspect more than he had to. The corner of my mouth curls as I think about the silly story I told him-fell in a puddle, Leonard, it's no matter-and how readily my husband accepted it, rewrapping his worry for a later time.
Darling, I feel certain I am going mad again.
They climb in a flesh canoe
for the maquiladoras to stab their
pipes into and carry them down river,
where the locals suck their soap refuse
and haze like hash,
burning out-of-season mangoes,
hard-skinned and bitter. They hack thin spit
that runs along street curbs into drains
beside the roundworm water
and then disappears in the dry Rio Grande
where even bones evaporate-
caught, sand-handed, by border police.
They climb in a flesh canoe
with babies swaddled on their
cigarette-pack shoulder pads,
and dip their oars silently in the sand.
Their legs ripple with the
effort of remaining water.
Goodnight, they tell Juarez,
an
The grandmother is someone to be ashamed of. Her wispy orange hair tufts around her ears in clumps and patches; her prosthetic leg and walker clip, scratch against the asphalt. The father is waiting in the car, his forehead against the Arizona-hot steering wheel asking himself why, God damn it, he hadn't visited his mother earlier.
The last time he saw her his daughter was four years old, his son had just been born, and he was in the White House, shaking hands with the president. His mother clamored on stage, beaming, lips trembling, smoothing her hair around her ears, and even though she was slow
Mia cara famiglia,
If you're reading this, my body is lying embalmed in Pasquini's Funeral Home, no better than a jarred frog in formaldehyde-and my dying wishes have been totally ignored. Don't try and deny it, Mamma, I told Pasquini's sweet son to deliver this to you only if my body showed up at his mortician father's door-I described my birthmark, so he'd know it was me. You can imagine how glad I am now that I had the foresight to write this letter, seeing as my suspicions were completely correct and my entire family does think I'm an idiot. Hopefully now that I'm dead, my opinion will weigh more. Maybe on paper, just a memory, I'll
Your fathers favorite
bobblehead,
his fingers dancing on your scalp
irritating rusted springs
three taps from snapping.
You cry
every time he calls.
Wah-wah,
like Charlie Brown and
old cartoons
the 1930s, when men
jumped out the window
a mass exodus to the ground
and no one noticed
til after
til cerebrospinal fluid
flowed around the haves
in oblong rushes brushing
the have nots.
You look out at the scenery
a daydream distracting
phone pressed to your ear
and they tell you not to jump.
He pressures you
like a shaken cola
a bursting catheter.
You gust out of a
punctured aeros
I am standing in the doorway. I held her close to me here, just here, during the earthquake three years ago, when I finally decided I loved her. I am standing here in the doorway, and she is standing by the bed, staring at an antique lampshade; I know she is remembering the day I brought it home from Brunei. She kissed me on the mouth for the first time since our wedding. Just in the corner, just there, but it was enough.
A suitcase is on the bed, the zipper half open; she stops every few seconds to stare at a piece of our life together and remember. The lampshade. Ring stains on the bedside table. The pattern the light makes on the b
she holds baby like hes
porcupine,
as if his plum tomato lips
stick her through,
name her pincushion with their
first words,
ma-ma.
most women coo,
its not so bad, having your
biological clock
tick-stopped by grasping gasping
clinging crying
staying.
shes too strong to peel away
softened-butter joints
from her solid-food fingers,
up to the knuckles in pedialyte.
men see the quills on her
baby-wide hips
and imagine lapping at the
baby-bottle poised dripping
hovering millimeters
from her nip-tuck lips.
she prays for I want you,
pulling-strings into her dark-
green bustier,
one pump balancing on the
I'm a foreigner anywhere I go, and I like it that way.
Current Residence: Singapore Favourite style of art: I Operating System: feel MP3 player of choice: like Shell of choice: falling Wallpaper of choice: in Skin of choice: love
Favourite Movies
When Harry Met Sally, The Fall, Hedwig and the Angry Inch
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Neutral Milk Hotel, Ella Fitzgerald, Death Cab for Cutie
Yay. :3
I'm a finalist in the youngARTS program and get an all-expenses-paid trip to Miami for master classes in poetry.
*bounces around the house and then comes back to sit down*
This is...exciting. Mondo-exciting.